Who's been paying attention? How long has it been since I blogged? Who cares? Always happens, lots of stuff going on, not alot of stuff being documented because...lots of stuff going on.
I went back to Beachy Head last weekend, boy oh boy was it WINDY! We lay down to eat our lunch to combat the completely relentless very strong wind, but it was it was also very very beautiful and as always breathtaking. Some of that taken breath was spent getting all weird if either of the children came within 5 metres of the edge of the cliff. What if they got blown off?! ARGH
I had an elvis batman to protect! Complete with unwiped houmous in the corners of his mouth. These little people are my future! NO GOING NEAR THE F'ING EDGE THANKYOU.
We left after 20 minutes or so, having had the stuffing knocked out of us but I do think that when I go there, because it's so infrequent that it's always a pivot for me thinking about what I'm supposed to be up to. It's the kind of place you feel very immediately that this world is big and if a view that stunning doesn't even scratch the surface then there are BIG, HUGE, MASSIVE THINGS OUT THERE.
As an aside, what I'm up to right now is jarring everytime George kicks the office chair whilst I peer over Ruby's head (she's sitting on my lap) and try to type. They're making some kind of irritating repetitive noise between each other whilst I type, desperately trying to gain my attention after a boring day in which I have entertained them minimally. I've completely done my foot in again - It's something I seem to be remarkably good at, god I wish I was remarkably good at something else. It's nowhere near as bad as last time but depressing nonetheless, I don't want to go anywhere and I feel spent enough not to initiate a craft or baking session. Bad mum vibe.
Anyway.... my post was going to mention that I went for a spiritual reading yesterday with a local clairvoyant. I've indulged myself in a few kind of readings over the last ten years but seeing a medium seems to be where I feel most comfortable. I did end up flipping out around halfway through and interrupting with the words 'I'm not laughing at you... please understand that...I'm laughing at just how weird this is... how do you know all this about me?!' was all a bit on the money. I got so absorbed in what I'm doing right now and what I should be doing that (doesn't everyone want to know that) I forgot that my primary wish was to have someone maybe pick up on some long forgotten vibration from my dad. Anyway, he didn't show up - although some interesting stuff came up about him. Maybe next time I'll go with the sole intention of trying to get my medium to ring him up on the other side, although I doubt very much that would fly. I am fairly certain that no matter how much I want to hear from him that I won't be getting any direct messages from him in this lifetime. In the meantime, I have something laid out that feels intuitively on my part the right way forward and I think it'll all start to unfold before the year is out.
Have you ever had a spiritual reading?
Just a quick note: No judgement calls please, if you're going to be negative, no suprises, I don't want to hear it!
Hope everyone has a good weekend